I wonder how....I wonder why
Sometimes, when I sit back and wonder about what each one of us is doing for a living, I see a pattern – woven around each one of our lives- somehow, leading us to do what we are best at and enjoy the most. I know few people who had clear cut vision that this is what they wanted to be and most who didn’t know what they want to do. Somehow, now all are doing (barring a few!!) what they are good at. Is it not true??I know many will point to people who are out of sorts in their work. I would say they have not had the calling yet or they are just plain lazy, useless people who anyway would not have done justice to any work they did.
I don’t know if I am doing science for a living but, surely, I am doing it for living! I think sometimes what I would have been if not in science and I shudder at such thoughts. I need new things to keep happening around me, the excitement that comes with science- the thoughts, the questions, the experiments and most importantly, the simple (rather not so simple) sane logic of why things are happening. If someone told me today that the world has banned science and I can’t do experiments anymore, I think I would open up one secret underground lab! I think I can understand why Archimedes rushed out of his bath naked, shouting “eureka” or why Galileo was ready to die but, not agree to earth being flat or why Newton even forgot he had a wife (costly mistake though!) or why Ramanujan would be oblivious to his own poverty and just do maths! Sheer love of the subject is enough to drive you to these things. I hope I would be able to translate my love for science into something fruitful, maybe not to the levels of these immortals but, surely what is the harm in trying.
Fruitful, I don’t necessarily mean useful to any human, though. There are other people to do that. I would be just happy to answer like a mystique yet with reasoning and proof about things which just interest me. Science, more than anything else, is an intellectual pursuit and I am not ashamed at all that my contribution to science probably will not be anything directly useful to anyone.
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Confession time : I loved being in the hotel...I mean that job was all about creating 'unforgettable experiences' for others. While doing that, I forgot my own life for 20 months...but on the Diwali night in Agra (2003) I was alone. I realised my life has taken a walk...and I need it back..so I am here in Delhi for over 5.5 years...doing something which is fun (but not sure if I really love it). That said, I definitey know, loving what you do is an intense feeling...everything else seems trivial.
Good post!
VA
true vinna!!but, if that's what u loved to do (i.e., making others' life easy), then that's what u should do. I sometimes, wonder if i would be ever helpful to anyone!!
I am sorry, but i don't get u. maybe its just about the choice of words. i think there are very few who do only that which they like. and there are others who also do what they do not like. but it is just not possible that u don't leave a color of something like 'your way of doing things' to things u do, be it for a living(ur choice or not) or not(just including all other chains in life).also these people who apparently seem to be doing what they do not like, also do things in life which they like, they may not be able to devote their whole time to it however.but who in the world can do everything they like and who in the world do only things that they don't like. the extremes do not exist anyway. how many of us loved going to school(classes) in the primary. but that doesn't make us sigh at our childhood. it always has lots more that make us smile....?????
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